Just Like New

I think we all have a penchant for new things. I would even go as far as to say people like new slates- in work, in the people they meet, in the things they have, in life in general.

My penchant for new things start where my eyes light up in recognition but end where my puny savings limit me. I like new things, but I'm generally very nostalgic and I like holding on to things no matter how old or useless they already are to me. I'm the kind who keep decade-old letters and notes written on tissue paper, carefully tucked away in my plastic chestbox. I even keep candy wrappers that signified special days.

I like things for keep, and people for keeps, too.

So imagine how my world turned upside down, shaken to the core, thrown from its usual timeline when the Lord told me it's time to let go of several people in my life. It's been a hard process, and a lot of times, I kept looking back (being nostalgic that I am). It was like I was walking but my eyes were on the road I've walked past on. And I thought moving on, that starting anew, meant replacing the people who've walked away from my life.

But no, it isn't about replacement. Starting on a new slate doesn't mean new things, it just means paradigm shift.

I have not tried to replace the people I've lost. I am thankful for the new people I meet and for the new people that the Lord is allowing me to meet, but they have not replaced those I've lost. Perhaps it's because I don't seek to replace, but mostly because I am contented where God has placed me right now. It's still a rough road, but I know Who drives my life towards a new and better place.

I may be alone but I feel all the love I can feel- His love always satisfies. And as the days go by, I realize that the only factor we need to start anew is to know it's His love that will enable us to do so. :)